The most raw and vulnerable thing I’ve ever done: my upcoming book and why I wrote it

HELLO! Wow, it has been a long time. I apologize for being a little MIA on here…but I promise it’s for good reason. You see, I sort of did this big thing by SIGNING WITH A PUBLISHER TO GET MY FIRST BOOK PUBLISHED!

Typing those words never fails to bring a smile to my face. Like the big, geeky smile you only let your close friends and family see.

I wanted to write this post today to give a little insight into why I wrote my book, titled Good Enough, as well as point you in the direction of my Indiegogo campaign in case you’re interested in joining me on my publishing journey.

If you aren’t familiar with my eating disorder story, I’ll give a brief description to catch you up to speed. From around 2013 to 2017, I battled anorexia, bulimia, and exercise addiction (not all at the same time, but throughout the span of those 5 years). On a daily basis, my eating disorder manifested through intense restriction of food, fear of food, obsession with how I looked, body checking constantly, excessive running, laxative use, and more.

I was blind to my disorder until about 2015 and after a confronting moment in one of my college classes, I slowly started my way toward recovery. By slowly, I mean it took me two full years fully commit.

Fast forward to now, and I’m living life recovered. That doesn’t mean life is easy peasy lemon squeezy, but it’s such a different life…and such a different me.

A life that allows for margin and isn’t driven by an incessant need to be distracted from how I’m feeling.

A life that is full of beautiful people who I get to call my community.

A life where God is in control and there’s a lot more acceptance and grace and compassion.

A me who is more than skin and bones—no longer covered in shame—but embodied by Truth.

A me who is more confident, calm, and unafraid.

A me that is free…free to come as I am; healed and forgiven.

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I wrote Good Enough because I want to help my readers experience transformation in their own story. I want them—as they are going down one path—to have the bravery and courage to make a sharp turn in their story for the better.

My book is for those who have ever battled an eating disorder, yet it’s also for those who know nothing about eating disorders.

I talk about trauma and the long-lasting effects it has on our lives if we never go back and process the pain; if all we do is try to run from our emotional wounds in an attempt to never deal with them again.

For me, not dealing with past trauma is what led me to cope through the form of an eating disorder. My disorder was a symptom of something deeper. It gave me a sense of control when an overwhelming sense of instability was happening in my mind, and most of all, it made me feel safe. Only, that feeling of “safety” was only temporary because any time I didn’t follow the rules of my monsters, I was in trouble. I was locked in a prison of my own making.

When I say “monsters” I don’t mean the scary, creepy, crawly giants that you fear when you’re a child. Instead, I mean the badgering, aggressive, and sometimes evil voices in our minds asking us to do X, Y, and Z to prove our worth. Maybe for you, it’s just one inner critic you have a name for. For me, it was multiple, all demanding different things at once. And if I didn’t obey my monsters, it made for long days, high anxiety, and increased eating disorder behaviors to try and be “good.”

If any of this hits home for you, I really hope you get a copy of my book to hold in your hands. It’s the most raw and vulnerable thing I’ve ever wrote, while also the most crucial.

It will challenge the way you think.

It will make you laugh at times, and cry during others.

It will be a resource.

It will be a friend.

The pre-launch campaign I’m hosting can be found here and is an attempt to fund the total cost it’s going to take me to publish through New Degree Press. Money raised will go towards the following:

  • The editor I will work with to revise and publish my manuscript in December 2020
  • The cover design of my book
  • The layout design for the interior of my book
  • The copyediting for my book to help polish the grammar and spelling prior to publication
  • The launch & promotion efforts for my book when I ultimately publish in winter 2020

WhiteCAs of now, there are only 7 days left in the campaign. Those who pre-order a copy (or copies) of the book to help me reach my goal before then will get the following exclusive rewards:

  • A personally signed copy of my book when I publish
  • A personal, handwritten thank-you note for pre-ordering my book
  • Your name will appear in a special Acknowledgements Section of my book (“with Special Thanks to”)
  • Early access to the Introduction of my book and my entire manuscript, with the opportunity to review it and give me early feedback
  • The opportunity to help me select my cover
  • A book topic/workshop seminar where I will share the experience of writing my book
  • And more!

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When you support this campaign, you are supporting so much more than a book—you are supporting a vision. A vision to help people go from feeling broken and alone to cherished and loved.

If you know someone who is fighting an eating disorder, body dysmorphia, food fears, or that feeling of NEVER BEING ENOUGH, please share the campaign with them!

And if you know someone who is trying to help someone struggling with any of the above, or someone who might be interested in learning more about any of the above, share with them too!

Most of us have past trauma (whether we know it or not), and although the topics in Good Enough do speak to a specific audience, I believe many with find the messages comforting and universal.

If you liked this blog post, you will most definitely like the book. I can’t wait to have you be a part of my author community (if you choose) and hope to hear from you guys in the comments.

Again, this is the link to my campaign where you can watch a video, read more about my story and mission, and contribute to the campaign.







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